*Approach with Caution*

Gawd I'm fat.... ever looked in the mirror & said that to yourself? I did recently & after badgering my husband he finally agreed that I was too. Ok so he didn't say "Hun you're fat" but he did his quirk smile. Not that he's any slimmer however I weigh only 10 lbs under him. Depressing!!

This month starts my 3rd (?) year at Curves. First year was good; I saw a noticeable difference in how things fitted by just working out. This past year I just had the odds stacked against me. First part of Summer saw me step wrong & twist my foot that took months to heal. Then the holidays & sadly whatever strides I had made last year, I took about 20 lbs step backwards. UGH!

Last week my Curves buddy & I sat through their weight loss & workout class. That night I crawled in bed with my book and started reading. The book itself got me motivated however when I logged onto their website to be horribly complicated & am glad I had a 30 day trial coupon to snoop it out. Not that $45.99 every 3 months is a horrible deal; I really can't afford doing that if I find myself frustrated in planning my daily meals. Then their whole "Phase" platform makes sense but I think I'd be setting myself up for failure if I even attempted it. So what did I do? I went back to Slimfast.com where it's free, it's a website I'm comfortable with as I've used it before & I do like their uncomplicated meal ideas. So I wiped out my previous attempt and started a new. I got my husband & oldest son to commit to working with me to eat healthier dinners instead of running through bueno/mcdonalds & little ceasers. We all 3 weighed in yesterday & I'm anxious to see how eating at home will benefit us all. (I did my oldest's weight just as a curiousity factor and not an attempt to force a diet on him! He is NOT an overweight 12 yr old but could definately benefit from eating better meals. I do NOT believe in stressing you children out and making them insecure about their bodies regardless of size/shape.) That being said; I'm going to post my weigh ins so that perhaps this will keep me on track.

Weigh in: 2/1/09: Me: 215 Husband: 225

So today is day 1 2/2/09:

Exercise:

30 mins @ Curves
25 min walk with the dog
Housework

Meals:

Breakfast: Slimfast Shake

AM Snack: 14 Fresh Strawberries

Lunch: Open faced turkey sandwich with 1tsp of fat free mayo, 2 slices of 98% fat free turkey, 1 lettuce leaf & 2 slices of tomato. 1/2 of a medium banana with a Slimfast Shake

Afternoon Snack: 2 celery stalks with 2 TBS of fat free cream cheese

Dinner: Baked Italian Chicken w/garlic mashed potatos, 2 cups of salad with 2 TBS of fat free italian dressing. (if you want recipe let me know & I'll post it) I'm hoping this meal is tasty, we'll see as I won't be cooking it for another hour.

PM Snack: 1/2 medium banana

I've also had more than 8 - 8 glasses of water today.

Mood: I feel like I'm pregnant again; but that's only because I have to go to the bathroom like every 20 minutes. I know that's from all the water I've been drinking today & I'm ok with that. I've had nothing with caffeine in it for more than 2 weeks now. I'm very proud of that. Yes I have had a carbonated beverage in that time frame but it's been diet and totally caffeine free! I'm also cold, which I'm almost never anything but too hot. I think that's because of all the water I'm drinking as well. Still feeling motivated & confident!